Heartache

Have you ever felt that your heart ache so bad that it hurts? When your heart is in pain, it felt so sour that tears will roll down your cheeks?

I did, I just did........

I told myself that I never wanna feel this way ever again.. Why did it feel so bad. I thought I was strong.. but I am not.. It suddenly felt that this is all just an illusion cos I do not know what do you want. I really don't. Maybe the feeling is mutual, I don't know... All I know is that I am at fault.. It's my bad that I am such a bad person to begin with.. I'm the one who cause all these and hence I'm in no position to have any emotions on this. But I'm sorry, I can't help myself I can't control my heart and my feelings.. I feel that I'm such a loser.. just let me to leave this place.. I really don't wanna go on anymore cos I don't wanna feel all the heartache and the bad emotions.. can I? I can't.. I'm so trapped...

Why?


I'm sorry.